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spoons & batteries

Sometimes i wake up with that terrible backache...Those that appear when i can't sleep at night. I don't have energy, but the pain keeps me from sleeping. 

My mum tells me to clean my room. I tell her i'm out of spoons. She doesn't understand.

But, what are spoons, in this case? Basically, it's something coined by Christine Miserandino, a waitress with lupus, who had the idea to illustrate, via (first encountered, literally) physical objects, the energy loss that chronically ill people face day by day. Still, some, because of the complex theory, prefer to explain it via battery. But spoons are more popular within each passing day.

Not only chronically ill people lose spoons quickly. Mentally ill people do too, specially if their mood gets low because of some reason. 
i'll show you a day in my life.

Firstly, i have 30 spoons. It's a terrific day, one that i hardly ever have. Almost a miracle.

1.- i wake up. Let's suppose it's Saturday. I habe to choose what to have for breakfast, and if i want to go to my Father's Ministry (which  is early morning, so it's kinda tiring). Let's say i do go. Choosing under pressure, changes  in  routine, and going from house to house (even if it's to talk with the Church's disabled members) makes me tired. now i just have 20 spoons.

2.-I go home and do my homework. Investigation, and then checking  social media WASTE 11 SPOONS. I just have  DANGEROUS 9.

3.- I go eating with my grandma, people fight, but, thanks to my marvelous headphones, i still have... 3 SPOONS.

4.- NOW, THE HARDEST CHOICE: GOING TO YOUTH MINISTRY, OR STAY HOME? I CHOOSE YES... AND NOW, I JUST HAVE ONE SPOON. KEY TO SLEEP. I RETURN HOME NEEDING TO USE THE BATHROOM URGENTLY, AND WITH BACK PAIN. I EAT A BANANA, AND  GO TO SLEEP, THINKING "TOMORROW WILL BE ANOTHER DAY".

UGLIEST PART OF THIS, IS: ONLY NAPS CAN RECHARGE YOU. IF, OF COURSE, YOU AREN'T WRECKED BY SADNESS OR PAIN. OR BOTH. THAT'S MY LIFE WITH SPOONS, OH YES. NOW I JUST HAVE 5 SPOONS, FROM THE MATH AND WRITING. I'LL EAT PIZZA AND GO TO SLEEP.




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